Disclaimer: A humble request to the ones who don’t believe in past life and soul please don’t waste your time in reading this and don’t troll me .
Its the piece of my imagination woven with my faith and ancient knowledge of my land.Thank you...Namaste!
“ Why Did I take birth in this family??What was my fault oh God!! these crazy people are driving me nuts! when would I move away from this madness".....Sara was asking herself in the silence of her room ,tears rolling down her eyes.Again a long argument and fight in the house ,utensils flying around,pieces of broken crockery lying near the kitchen floor and her parents bruised ,hurt and tired by abusing each other for the millionth time now.
She has witnessed these Netflix drama alike episodes; full of anger ,violence and abusive language and Rated MA from her toddler years,sadly there was no parental guidance for her, which is recommended even for the fiction in the Netflix.
Many of the human souls can experience a Deja Vu' with the above scene.As much as it leaves non healing scars on the mind and soul,the person keeps wondering why me??and unfortunately repeating the same old patterns into one's life as well.
Meanwhile Sara has slept asking Krishna to help her,as pain was too much and too often.A moment after falling asleep she sees a dark hued boy smiling and calling her,she gets up and starts walking towards him.He gently holds her hand and gives her a pen made of peacock feather ,and points towards an empty notebook made with old ,rustic papers.Sara is little intrigued now,"what should I do?"......"questions my dear!!all the questions that you have,I am here to help you";the boy spoke with a smile .Sara looked at him ,he is wearing a silken blue-green shirt with a red -yellow pajama and a pearl bracelet in his hand, eating white caramel chocolate ,which is smeared all over his face...."what?"...he asked smiling"why do you stare at me?...Am I always supposed to wear the same design and eat same stuff,I too can improvise....Never-mind .Let me know when you are done and I can refer you to the scholar who can help you with every question in depth".The boy got busy with his milk chocolate.Sara didn't understand what has he improvised and what 'same design' is he talking about .Nonetheless something strange happened to her hands and Sara started scribbling very fast,faster than she ever wrote.Penning down each and every question she has every asked the world and life and why were they both cruel,unjust ,uncertain and beyond logic.
The moment she kept that pen down ,both the book and pen flew and went to the boy,he smiled and asked Sara to turn around and look .Strangely,the scene has changed,huge snow laden mountains were all around her as far as she could see.The boy started playing his flute and pointed towards the tallest peak ,she could see someone sitting there but difficult to identify.She wanted to ask the boy ,before she could say anything he touched her with his flute and she landed at the peak of the mountain.
The silhouette, she could hardly glare at .Huge column of light which was neither white nor blue,filled her with calmness and stillness.”Don't know what to look for ,where am I and why?”She thought.A loving voice came "You have asked for his help tonight,so he brought you here and suggested that I should walk you through the answers,my child".....came out a Yogi ,a Mystic with matted hair and rudraksha beads around his neck,trident and damaru in his hand ..."that's how you recognise me"....he smiled and pointed to his matted locks and trident.
Sara was speechless,frozen,excited ,joyous and calm ..all at the same time...Shiva!! that's you... OMG....Krishna brought me here..OMG...OMG...OMG...but nothing came out of her mouth,her lips aren't moving but tears flowing down her cheeks.
Than she felt a gentle touch of a motherly hand on her shoulder ,she turned her head around,there stood the all encompassing mother with lotus eyes filled with oceans of love..".Maa Amba,Kamakshi,Gaura,Parvati,Laxmi ...don't know what should I say",she thought...."Nothing my child.".Replied mother..."nothing,just sit on my lap and listen what Bholenath wants to tell you.He has been telling me these stories since the beginning of the Time.Lot of Seers,Rishis and saints understood this in their deep meditation and wrote down great texts about all the questions that you have.Listening to your prayers I realised that I should request Bholenath to make it very easy for the kids like you.So come here ,sit and listen".Maa showed her a small chair made of a beautiful stone and asked her to sit.Meanwhile Krishna was flying on Garuda and playing flute .Maa spoke again,”Every time you cried we were with you ,pointing towards Krishna and Shiva ,but the time wasn't ripe.Now lets start”.Maa looked at Mahadeva ,he was smiling and deeply engrossed in reading Sara's notes.Sara was now feeling shy and strange..."Don't know what all I scribbled in anger and desperation",...."It's ok my child” said Maa,”Mahadeva loves to answer questions and tell stories,when he is not meditating”.Smile on Mahadev's face grew bigger... and than a loving kindness covered his face,his whole being,Maa,Krishna and whole Kailash was vibrating at the wavelength of deep compassion.
Bholenath began..."Dear Sara,The exact moment,(specific to microseconds )a person gets birth on earth is decided by lot of factors ,out of which most important are the past lives' karmic account balance and unfulfilled desires of the soul.A soul chooses the kind of body,family and all aspects of these two before taking birth.The purpose is to clear the karmic account balance and move to next level.The more attached a soul becomes to things or people in one life time, doesn't matter whether they are negative or positive attachment,the more it gets close association with those beings.For example extreme hate,anger and jealousy against any person will keep manifesting that person or likes of him again in the same life and lifetimes to come with more intensity.A person might choose to react with anger and physical abuse to a unpleasant action of a neighbor;increasing karmic account with the person when previously none existed.This hate based on race,religion,success,habits might have developed gradually in the subconscious which in turn was rooted in some other past negative karma against someone else.Let’s call the neighbor in present example Mr X….I don’t like him for some unknown reason (although the reason is deep rooted in some past karma) and he ends up rear ending my car parked in front of my house,now my anger knows no bounds and I shout,abuse and hit him.He might hit back(if so,he creates a new negative account balance with me and now we ought to meet in this or next life times to settle this)or he chooses to show compassion and forgiveness and asks me how can he compensate.At this time I can realize that I overreacted and all that was needed was to call the insurance and see how to take care of the car,and to ask him to be careful from next time.This again settles the score and karmic bonds are not established .However in a vice versa situation ,I needed to pay back for the physical hurt and abuse I inflicted on him.For example similar thing might repeat in the distant future, with me on receiving end this timee.g. the abuser (another person Mr Y)might break my car or cause more physical harm.Again I have option to choose my response that will set me free or create a karmic debt with Mr Y,so I can either free myself or shackle myself which again is based on my conditioning/sanskar/habit pattern that has been calling shot and creating my life .However frequently the situations don’t repeat very soon but in other lifetimes or lifetimes of our future generations.Now you ask how to figure this out?For this Sage Parashara has written whole text explaining all events,relations,timings etc.This is known as Vedic Astrology.It helps us understand the events in one’s life based on the soul’s past and present life karma and karma of the families of mother and father.Some karma manifest up to seven generations and further, while many manifest upto three generations.A karma as good or bad as denying a glass of water to a thirsty person or giving your water to a thirsty person can create great positive outcomes or repercussions in our life.But unfortunately in Kaliyuga selfish motives have taken prime importance in the life of human beings consequently they suffer and blame god,nature,luck and life.
Specific to you my child,You were a great devotee of god,working for welfare of humans in orphanages,old age homes and hospitals but you left your old ,sick and hungry parents on god’s will and left for the mountains for penance and serve humanity.Consequently you have the parents in this lifetime,who are dysfunctional and can’t fulfill your needs.As in last life you had care,love ,resources of your parents and left them.So your karmic account balance doesn’t have ‘Parental care’ left.....(and for the good karma you did?.....you are here, getting this liberating knowledge.So now you practically understand that good doesn't cancel bad but gives the strength to bear it.So my child,I hope this makes it clear that how mindful one needs to be!!.)..In this life you need to not judge them ,ask for family counselor's help.Take charge of your life and focus on your personal growth and when you become a parent ,provide great care and support".....also do not expect anything in return!!....and now you know why...However there is always hope in every situation.Karma which are steadfast, also called by Buddha as' written in stone' or Prarabdha meaning the fruit of actions which has ripened and ready to fall must be accepted and lived with grace.There are other karma which can be improved by our free will.We have lot of options in life to make right choices but blinded by greed of material desires we choose quick,easy and personally beneficial options what can be called as unwholesome,on the other hand if we make the right choice and always opt for win-win rather than win -loose ,we can slowly and gradually re write our destiny. As destiny is nothing but the withdrawal which we are allowed to make from our karmic bank account .So the simple rule is 'you can withdraw only if you have deposited earlier'.I will let you sit and meditate on this for now....comeback and ask me more and I shall reveal more to you,my child".......Saying that all three disappeared.Sara felt like shouting at the top of her voice as a lot of hidden and stuck emotions were flowing out from her eyes and throat.....suddenly she felt as if many tonnes of weight was lifted from her head and she is light as a feather ,flying in the sky."Get up ....i won't drop you to the school if you miss the bus again today"....She opened her eyes...her mother was standing by her bedside.Sara jumped out of the bed ,hugged her mother and planted a deep kiss on her cheek before rushing into the shower....leaving her mother wondering about what just happened!!
P.S. Those who want to know their past life pending karma and why certain things happened to them….Please visit youtube channel LUNAR ASTRO by Deepanshu Giriji.I don’t know him personally,nor does he know me but his channel has changed the way of living and thinking for ever.Also try to do VIPASSANA as taught by Sri S.N. GOENKA ji.I promise you life will change for good.You will be able to handle most of the things with lot of calmness,and unwavering faith in yourself and divine wisdom.
Guruve Namah….
