Who Am I?

This essentially is a question I am asking myself in a very technical way.I was supposed to be a medical doctor working back home in a busy government hospital.However life has brought me far away ,both in miles and mind.sitting at other end of globe I wonder,how little did I know when I thought that I knew it all!!

As I can't practice(medicine) in the outside world,i started practicing inside.The journey has started!.....first stop was VIPASSANA MEDITATION for 10 days.I knew that my life will never be the same again when I walked out of the dhamma centre.The change was for good and was great.I felt as if I had dropped 50 kg boulder from my shoulder which i was carrying for eternity.Getting rid of chronic migraines,improved sleep are minuscule gains but are the only ones which can be documented objectively."The actual gains are beyond documentation"....a relative has mentioned before I left for the sadhana.And thats all I could say when my family asked "How was it?"

One fine day I stumbled upon a you tube video of Astrology for beginners.It has always amused me how relatives of patients admitted in ICU used to come with amulets/holy waters etc as per astrologer advice and requested me to allow them to put it near the patients.To this I always reacted furiously and scolded them for wasting my time and their time and money both.Now here I am drawing a natal chart of houses and trying to figure out hidden messages.What has changed?am I too idle?is there something actually happening in the inside?was it a plan of nature to take me far away from who I thought I was for 37 years ,so that I can actually discover who am I?

One year has passed since I first drew  that diagram of diamond shaped divisions in a square.

I have understood one very important thing that nature has answer to all the questions we have!!...........contrary to the general notion of "Life is unfair".

she is desperate that we discover the truth,she is running after us like a compassionate mother with elixir of life and we are running away from her confused,disconnected and perplexed.If only we could stop,turn around ,bow our head and spread our hands!!

Thank you Prakriti Maa for holding my hand.

I bow down in sheer gratitude and awe as I can never write even in eons what you told me about who am I?

Not in arrogance but in deep humility I have started to understand who am I?

Divine arrangements are amazing if only we could see the truth hiding in plain sight.sometimes I felt dismayed that all these years why I could not realize the truth as I feel it now?Than a soothing calmness covers me ,telling that I needed a lesson in patience all these years,not knowing a bit of it during all those years of medical training and work that has turned me into all knowing demi-god savior  of humanity(self acclaimed)kinda being.

OM Sri guruve namah